I almost left the post just there.
A quick hi. A "I'm here, I'm just not here".
I'm sorry I've had to postpone our tea. Can we make it next week?
I have not been myself.
My thoughts are fragmented, distracted. Overwhelming.
I've been flat. And finding it hard to do day to day things without using a super huge amount of effort.
Where did my mojo go? How do I get it back?
When will this little grey foggy cloud lift itself?
I feel like I could sleep for days.
Every night I jump into bed early with the hope that this will be the night I'll have a week's worth of rest, and wake in the morning, bright, and back to normal.
And every night I lay awake too long, and too late, and when sleep finally comes, is ripped away again by some feline, or mini-human distraction.
And each tired morning the to-do list I spent hours determining in my mind the night before slips away with the arrival that silly fog, and I have forgotten what was important, or exciting, or necessary.
I have started taking some vitamins, and drinking more green tea than black.
And I had tea with a friend for the first time in these couple of weeks, which has seemed to lift me out of my stupor a little. I even made the beds after she'd left, and tidied the kidlets bedrooms, trying not to think about the mess that will reappear before I have time to blink.
joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer*.
*Romans 12:12. The Bible is a wealth of wisdom, no?
**I am not depressed. Just feeling a little melancholy... maybe a little more blue than yellow. ;)